I forgot, I did not think it was going to happen, I had made it the rest of the way through the month without forgetting, even with a trip to San Diego thrown in. And I don't have a particularly good excuse, yesterday was pretty normal - after having my first facial (see here for the reason why), I spent a little time holiday shopping (mostly pointing out to my husband what I would like), the ran into an old friend from childhood, and finally had a nice dinner with friends. I guess I was exhausted when I got home, as I could only stay up through one Tivo'd show...and then I went to bed. No blogging, oh well.
So, let me release myself from the guilt of failing this project by saying that I am pretty sure no one reads my blog - something Google Analytics supports. So, I am not failing my readers, I am failing myself. And if I can get it into perspective, then I will put it aside, because in the scheme of things, this is not a life breaker. I can (and will) go on. It might even become part of my lore, although it might also be a sign that I could just back off a bit and concentrate on other things.
Since I mostly blog at night, after the kids have gone to bed, I have given up other activities that I used to enjoy - my favorite was to read magazines while watching TV with DH. Sounds strange, but I found it relaxing. Sometimes I would also pick up a paper craft or a needle craft, just to keep my hands busy. Also, because I am now searching for material to blog about, much of my brain activity is spent analyzing the past, rather than focusing on the present. I used to have this problem in a slightly different form - I would focus so much on the future that I could not focus on the present. And when I don't focus on the present, I miss out on quite a bit. Activities with the kids take on a different importance when I am searching for "material".
On the other hand, I have taken a moment each day to reflect on what has happened, or my thoughts about things or whatever, which I cannot say that I often do. It is interesting to look back on the past month, read what I was up too, and see if writing things down has caused my behavior to change or intensify. Also, I don't seem to be snacking as much after dinner, since the laptop occupies the space where my bowl of ice cream used to sit. And I enjoy writing daily, something that I thought might be a slog. Maybe this blogging thing is not such a bad thing.
In any case, I think that this month of posting has been a useful exercise and I might actually participate in NaBloPoMo again next year. And I still have a list of topics to blog about, so I plan to continue on as long as my holiday season allows. It would be nice if I could find my niche, like other bloggers have, but I think I need a little more writing to make that happen.
Thank you for your attention, see you again tonight, as I will not let one missed post upset the boat. I will treat it like birth control pills, and just take the next one as soon as I remember, even if that means taking two in one day......